Replying to
@RickiTarr
A. Music. Playing it with other people, going to see it, immersing myself in it to the exclusion of almost everything else. It's still one of the biggest parts of my life but when I was young I played for many hours most nights of the week and went to shows all the time. Haven't played with anyone in decades, or been to a show in longer than I can remember.
B. Feeling zero need to prove myself to anyone.
These two things are in tension.