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mastodon 4.7.2+glitchtired old bimbo who used to make games
queer (non-binary transfem, pan but mostly lesbian, poly)
neurospicy (autistic, adhd, plural)
disabled (chronic fatigue)
she/her, it/its if we're friends
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I'm supposed to go to a shibari workshop later today, but the dress code is sports clothing and the leggings+t-shirt combo is making me dysphoric as all hell, I don't know if I can make it
lots of intrusive thoughts of jumping into an active volcano so I'm never perceived again
@junklight@mastodon.art I'm entering my 4th year of HRT, the other day I was looking at selfies from last year around the same time and my face has visibly feminised even more since (I'm almost 50, for reference); breast growth still ongoing.
you have a lot to look forward to is what I mean I guess (and that's one of the joys of doing this)
I suspect there's a bias towards the first year or two of HRT being perceived as where you see the most results simply because people post way more about their experiences when they're early in their transition
in the queue for Camp Miasma and it's full of cis lesbians
not really enjoying the terfy vibes
dating while disabled
just gonna say it out loud since it's happened twice already: if I follow you and you start posting about working with LLM tools and how it's been great i will just make a disappointed face and hit the unfollow button
I don't want to hear about your sad slop lifestyle choices
ominous device dot jpg
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@losttourist @zzt @MrBerard you can't call yourself a LGBTQ+ ally and defend one of the fundamental building blocks of worldwide queer youth censorship, that's not how it works my dude
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@siege it's beyond parody to say something like that to someone who has had to deal with the mountains of bullshit we go through daily
also raises a lot of questions about their own personal hygiene
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@kravietz@agora.echelon.pl @CrimethInc@todon.eu you mean the governments that force undocumented women into concentration camps, jail women who miscarry, legislate what they're allowed to wear? those governments run by pedos and convicted rapists? who fund and cheer on the genocidal maniacs in the middle east who employ mass rape as a tool in their campaign of extermination of the Palestinian people?
ovh email that arrived at 4AM on a Sunday: our web hosting offers are getting better!
me: you're jacking up your prices aren't you
ovh email: dear valued customer,
me: uh uh
ovh: ...adding more value to our hosting plans...
me: *keeps scrolling*
ovh: ...now with AI for web hosting...
me: what does that even mean *keeps scrolling*
ovh: ...improved tech support...
me: you're just deploying a chatbot aren't you *scrolls again*
ovh: also we're raising all our hosting prices 30 to 60% lmao
you know you've reached a transition milestone when your youtube ad feed consists entirely of ads for cosmetics and lesbian dating apps
the combination of being very isolated IRL and the constant low level sexual harassment that comes with being one of the only trans women out in this shitty town, it can be really soul destroying sometimes
it feels like I'm quietly going insane, perhaps as a weird mental safety mechanism? you can't objectify me and deny my personhood if I hit the big emergency depersonalisation button in my brain first, fuck you
I wonder how many other trans women who live outside big cities experience something similar
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@VeroniqueB99@mastodon.social there's a content warning function on mastodon that lets you warn people in advance of distressing content so they have a choice of clicking to engage with it or not, please use it
it's very distressing to sexual assault and rape victims to be submitted to graphic descriptions of these kinds of events, it fires up traumatic memories and victimizes them again, it's *very* unpleasant, to put it mildly
there's nothing quite like spending a couple hours getting completely ignored by your peers at a queer support group meet-up, leave the place to have a cry on the bench outside, only to be leered at by a chaser and his friends
what a life
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@jguillaumes @cstross @sundogplanets one glance at their "posts and replies" tab is usually all you need, they're rarely doing it only to you
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depending on how desperate you are:
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dating apps gen X women use, they're probably all owned by Match group now
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Grindr (I know, I know; but you still can find other girls on there, if you can deal with the avalanche of dick pics)
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try the new fancy apps designed by and for queer zoomers, post an elaborate profile, probably never get an answer
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monitor your local transfem signal chats, try to DM other middle aged ladies when they show up so you have a link to them when they inevitably leave when they get tired of the hostility
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your local cis gay bar; somehow there's often a doll stuck there who isn't aware of any other hangout spot
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@briellebouquet@lgbtqia.space
hey it's a really nice top
glad I'm not the only one who wears things for a bit too long because they're really nice
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@JaxVent@lgbtqia.space @forestine@sunny.garden @Tattie@eldritch.cafe autocorrect uppercases it automatically for me every time and it's so annoying
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@MichaelBishop @cwebber shame that it doesn't include the cruelty of writing bad posts and inflicting them on others
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@YKantRachelRead
I pressed the button and found out later I had stupidly strong maternal instincts :/
the gods love their mean pranks I guess
(still worth pressing that button though)
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forgot how good Endless Dismal Moan was, holy fuck
- YouTube
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@Thalya@eldritch.cafe I think it's one of those things that once you realise you're doing it you can shake yourself out of it
I know plenty of 40+ yo people who are both super into the things they were into when they were younger, but still curious about new things and eager to discover them
whenever I set foot in a pub and it looks like it's full of dickheads that song pops up in my head immediately now
It’s time to give in. #comedyvideo #funnyvideos #funny #musicalcomedy
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@MelissaBearTrix I'm trans, and quite visibly autistic, it has never been not a question in my life
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@terribletowelie @maxleibman
"canada too, they se the extra letter too, they can jst tell their government NO and not be force to se the seless extra letter... Elbows p Canada" I'm sorry bt that sonds terrible
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DIY HRT resources for transmasculine people (first draft, polite suggestions welcome)