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estrogenandspite
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mastodon 4.7.3+glitchI promise I'll put something here.
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I must not scroll. Scroll is the mind-killer. Scroll is the little-death that brings total anxiety. I will deny the phone. I will permit the boredom to pass over me and through me. And when the scroll no longer clouds my mind I will see my path. Only I will remain.
yeah sex is good and all but have you had a partner say you’re cute for something past shitty partners mocked you for so hid it and now you’re experiencing real love and acceptance for the first time so you finally can let down the mask and heal?
"When I kissed her she tasted like strawberries" ...you only tasted her lip gloss. When I kissed her she tasted of agony and surrender, of submission and rage. She tasted of honeycomb fresh from the hive, still dripping venom.
You kissed her lips. I have tasted her soul.
All fan work is art.
Yes that includes the unedited fic shipping Peter Parker with a clone.
Yes that includes the AMV of Sasuke clips over Linkin Park.
Yes that includes every single piece of Sonic inflation art ever made.
IT. COMES. FROM. THE. HEART. IT. IS. ART.
"Breed me" but not as submissive to her dominant, but as a hive queen to her drones.
Me: “No, struggle with pathological demand avoidance.”
YouTuber I trust and enjoy opening video: “You have to listen to this.”
Me: immediately puts down phone, walks away.
Me: ”What? I said I don't struggle with it. I'm actually very good at it."
"I think you're pretty."
You're sweet.
"I want you to domme me or engage in some other carnal fun."
I mean, I'm interested.
"I read your books and think they're really good and also the first two statements are true for me as well."
I can only tie my hair back so fast. Your place or mine?
There's thunder and rain happening here. I love it. It's been too long since I had a proper storm, and it always just feels right.
Okay having now tried and experienced the wonder that is nutritional yeast... Can we give this stuff an actually good name? Nutritional yeast is so fucking unappealing, and "vegan cheese" sets the bar too high.
Like it's fucking delicious and it's so good for you. Can we just give it a better name?
Do you like lesbians and tokesatu inspired books and trying to mitigate the apocalypse?
Well do I have good news for you! This book has all of that and so, so much more. And it's available for free on Royal Road. Action! Adventure! Dungeon Mechs! Mothmen!
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So one thing I don't talk about very much is that I learned hypnosis through being groomed and abused by a hypnotist. I learned how to do hypnosis to reclaim the power that was taken from me. I'm not gonna get into it on this post. Maybe another one. But this has led to me having a deep-seated distrust of other hypnotists.
And end of the day, that's a me problem.
In a discord server I'm in, another hypontist was talking about what she's done recently, I chatted with, she asked if she could DM to compare notes tist to tist... and I said sure.
This is honestly a big step for me. Forcing myself to overcome that fear the only way I know how - by rushing in headlong.
Hey do you want dungeon erohorror? Mind the TWs before reading. This one gets spicy and a bit darker than I usually go. Tags for: Corruption, intox, implied rape, corruption, monsterfucking, breeding, corruption.
You can read it all here
I have really been underestimating how much "sleeping better" has been behind my mental health improving... Until I had two days where I wasn't doing that and started to crash. Heading to bed early. I need it.
I can prove that algorithmic content recommendation is useless and cannot give you what you really want:
I, queen "I love spec evolution and write dungeon core because monster design is fun" only JUST NOW have found "hybrid monster fights and spec evo youtube"... because a friend sent me a video.
Small pet peeve time: Please don't say something is "roughly" and include a decimal place in there. Even on the scales of light years, saying something is "Roughly 5.2 light years away" sounds very silly.
When you're doing it with miles, it sounds fucking absurd.
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It feels like every few months someone either figures out we're a system or someone figures out we have double Ds. I guess it's my turn to do the latter.
I feel like I'm getting the better end of this deal.
Actually gonna take my own advice. Self imposed no social media (besides chat programs) for the rest of the day. Love you all, see you tomorrow, someone DM me if we get a front page obituary.
"I want to be craved."
"Lots of people want you-"
"They desire me. I want someone to crave me. I want her to go feral over me. I want her begging for my touch, willing to debase herself for a glance. I want to be able to break her by making her wait."
"You want to be irreplacable."
"...shut up."
Okay so in my goal to explore more mech fiction, I decided to watch Gundam: The Witch from Mercury. Having been disappointed in the past with “gay” anime, I was expecting very little.
I am now 2 episodes in and… more like Gay, Damn: the Witch From MercYuri, am I right?
A jealous dominant? No no no, darling. I spent years making you into the work of art you are today. Your mind my favorite canvas, your obedience my magnum opus.
And what artist doesn’t love her craft being shared?
RE: https://pony.social/@estrogenandspite/116182919551372831
I like that this works both for the modern conception of a hive queen and drones (latex and gas masks and programming and hypnosis, very good) and for the monsterfucker conception of a hive queen and drones (chitin and tentacles and pheremone control and probably also hypnosis, also very good).
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"Breed me" but not as submissive to her dominant, but as a hive queen to her drones.
Open quoted postit is not "holy crap it's 1pm and I've gotten nothing done."
It is "Holy crap I've been up for 2 hours and had chats with partners, called pharmacy, done book promo stuff, set up groceries, and planned meals for the day (including plans for a week's worth of lunch prep)."
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re: An abuse survivor’s rage
Ever so often my brain decides to remind me that being a system is absolutely a mental health issue.
I was fine for the first few hours today. Then noon to five is "giant nebulous blur, but I'm vaguely aware I was tired and crying."
I think it's just because I have slept poorly the last two nights in a row and the cumulative effect of that gets really bad. I'm gonna try and force myself to sleep early tonight and hope that fixes it but oof fuck.
Sorry I haven't been as active over here lately y'all. I'm gonna try and be better about watching multiple places.
This will mean very little to most people here, but in case anyone is coming here today because of this: I am no longer one of the moderators of the Publishing Derby, having stepped down back in December to focus on my personal projects.
I got tired of making you all wait. Enjoy Chapter 1 of Coreblade Dungeon Wardens as I prepare to post more elsewhere!
hmm... do I actually not want to go to TMNT pre-release tonight for a valid reason, or am I just depressed and underslept and will feel better if I go?
(Normally I would be sure it was the latter but part of the issue is I am having hand pain as well so I'm not sure if that's the cause or if that's an excuse my brain is latching on to)
My biggest fear is that my back pain will end up like the pain I had in my hands and wrists. Where it's just an intermittent thing that flares up sometimes... until one day it doesn’t flare down, and it becomes a new disability.
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@AbbeyPerilous@lgbtqia.space it means a lot to me to hear that. :)
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@nicolexyz@hachyderm.io I can absolutely see why.
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@jedimb@mastodon.gamedev.place I bounced off GQuuuuuuX. Part of why I'm trying this instead and definitely enjoying it more already
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@projecteuler@tenforward.social absolutely they left zero room for you to doubt the gay from the very beginning
Toxic yuri where a drone controller (tech style) and hive queen (organic) end up starting to fall for each other in a Domme for Domme relationship while also fighting over humans that one wants to reprogam and the other wants to mutate.
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@projecteuler@tenforward.social oh that looks interesting.
Need to get my back blown out by a sub I have so rigged up with post hypnotic suggestions she thinks she‘s in charge, completely unaware she’s a puppet to my every whim.
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@nicolexyz@hachyderm.io this is one I wrote fairly quickly for a prompt. I have so much more down the line when I put more work into it.
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re: CW: sexual abuse, grooming, seriously this is extremely heavy.
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@truthaddictvt@masto.ai oh yeah search is fucking absurd. It's at the point where it's so hard to find anything.
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@Artemis201@mstdn.social amazing
Hey, can anyone recommend some good fan Pokémon games? I've got the itch for turned based combat and the specific design of characters that are Pokemon, but also fuck nintendo. Maybe infinite fusion?
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@itsmaya@social.treehouse.systems thank you! 😊
I think I am going to unplug for the remainder of the day aside from direct conversations with friends and parnters. I'm going to watch a movie or TV show I like. I am going to snuggle my cats. I'm going to cook something new for dinner.
I think this is a good day to enjoy the simple pleasures.
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@lalah@sakurajima.moe I watched one ages ago so I'm not new to the series but this one is definitely an improvement. Suletta so far is a phenomenal protagonist.
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@itsmaya@social.treehouse.systems Hehehe, oh yeah?
With the internet increasingly hostile to trans women but most of us making our living online, we need to be in as many spaces as we can to keep our circles. Share with yours.
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@Artemis201@mstdn.social sorry
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@masukomi@connectified.com exactly!