I dont know how to explain to cis people what it feels like to live in your body after spending most of your life living outside of it. #TransJoy
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Eleanor 🫖🍵📚
@eleanor@chaosfem.tw
mastodon 4.7.2+glitchForty-something trans woman. I'm a mom. I play the violin and piano. I love reading, especially queer fiction.
To survive the capitalist hellscape, I touch computers, but math has always been and will always be my true love.
I'm a giant pile of anxiety and depression. I get high scores on various autism assessments.
she/her
Most of my posts are followers only and all posts autodelete after 3 months.
Profile pic is a a pixel art picture of a girl in a purple dress facing away from the viewer and watching the sunrise. She has shoulder length reddish blonde hair.
Banner pic is the final six bars of the Bach solo violin sonata no 1.
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People laughed at me when I said projective geometry could save the world.
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#Deepfakes are everywhere, but #DigitalForensics investigators are fighting back:
Went for a walk in the forest today and found all the mulberries. #BloomScrolling
My girlhood is a song that, for so long, only I could hear. Sometimes I tried to drown it out with noise, but no matter what, the song never left me. It just waited for me to play it out loud for everyone else.
I struggle a lot, but sometimes im sitting here in my yoga pants and a t shirt with my hair in a messy bun on a sunny afternoon and I want the little girl I was to see this so she knows it's OK. #TransJoy
Ant picture and behavior question
The problem with understanding yourself is that you learn something that becomes impossible to ignore.
A computer can never inject hormones, therefore a computer must never generate text.
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Given the choice between having a miserable dude and my glorious boobs in the world, transphobes choose....the miserable dude???
I'm all for metric, but the ignorance of the post currently circulating smugly making fun of acre feet as a unit of measure is annoying.
We measure land in acres. In the western and central us, we flood irrigate our crops. You generally build a one foot or so berm around your fields to hold the water in when you irrigate. So an acre foot is in direct correspondence with the number of irrigations you can do per acre. It's a measure of volume that farmers understand viscerally, so they hear about how many acre feet of water used by a data center and they *know* what that means to them and their crops. They know how many acre feet they've had to skip this year because of drought water restrictions and what that means for their fields.
So, yes, it's good to be angry about water theft for data centers. But to turn that into some smug bullshit about units of measure is just fucking ignorant.
(And reply guys stay away from this - i grew up on a farm in the western us and helped my family irrigate fields every summer, and I developed data analysis tools and coauthored papers for agriculture water conservation, so just don't)
Now, some folks may be asking, "what is transcrime, really?" Friends, our options are diverse, although for those of us who live on the stolen land that is the "United" "States" of "America", we may need to travel a little to find the perfect option. Sometimes, it's peeing! Sometimes, it's talking about trans people! Sometimes, it's having a driver's license. Sometimes, it's obtaining Healthcare that keeps us alive! There are so many ways to do transcrime I'm sure we can all find the option that's right for us.
If AI were in fact the future (it isn't) the correct approach to educating people about it would be teaching people statistics so they could understand the strengths and limitations of the statistical modeling theorems on which all "AI" and "ML" are based and therefore understand to which problems models can be applied to with quantifiable results.
We have reached the time of year where the progesterone sticks together in one big block.
A closer picture of one of the desert roses in the big thicket I posted a picture of earlier. #BloomScrolling
I know I talk a big game, but in case you're wondering what it's actually like to be around me I just saw an onion headline on this website with a picture of a dad giving his daughter a talking heads record and started crying.
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@PurpleStephyr@thetransagenda.gay @JoscelynTransient@chaosfem.tw we're all about surfing the side effects.
The stream tried to play a single track from a love supreme and like when are streaming companies going to learn that there are some albums you can't play one track from, so anyway im listening to the entirety of a love supreme, which I havent done in probably decades and damn if this isn't one of the most amazing pieces of music ever made.
Fuck it im getting more tea
how bout we just not
All I ever wanted to be was Queen Titania.
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@Willow I've been hoping for almost 7 years now that this would let up, but it shows no signs of doing so.
I swear to god if that crazy bitch drinks all of my afternoon tea again today im going to fucking lose my shit
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The punctuation in that is ambiguous. Unintentional, but all the meanings are valid
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@burnoutqueen Even now it's still baffling to me how people can't understand that feeling. Hugs.
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@CordiallyChloe@tech.lgbt i certainly didn't have energy for it at the time. Now that it's been a year...maybe. but I also dont think people really get how insidious it is when it happens. Technically, I was offered a choice: I could redo all my paperwork and check the M box or I could lose my credential. I refused to check the M box. I just don't know if cis people would be sympathetic to that position and it would look like my fault to them.
@aizuchi@hachyderm.io @oldladyplays@wargamers.social
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@aizuchi@hachyderm.io @oldladyplays@wargamers.social I was also forced out of my government funded job last year for being trans. The wrong person found out I was trans and complied in advance with the executive orders to revoke credentials I needed to do my job.
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@faithisleaping@anarres.family @futurebird@sauropods.win my childhood best friend and I used to make believe we could make potions to do things. The most common was the one that could turn me into a girl of course, but the second most common was a shrinking potion. I'd spend hours on the phone with her planning what we'd do when the potion worked. I requisitioned my sister's doll house and set it up for how I wanted it to look when my friend and I moved into it together.
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@faithisleaping this one makes me cry for both deeply happy (for him) and deeply sad (for myself) reasons every time it comes across my timeline.
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@what fitted tank tops made with the right kind of fabric in bright colors. Yoga pants. Sports bras.
Fancy dresses, like always. High school dances killed me because I was so jealous of my friends' (and on the rare occasion I had one, dates') dresses. I would always look at pictures from dances and dream of being the girls I was pictured with, wearing their dresses.
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@faithisleaping@anarres.family ...and on the seventh day, he declared "This will be the day for the gays to brunch."
Also, not technically new Orleans piano (i guess, but what jazz piano isnt new orleans piano, especially when it's gospel influenced too), but I love Ray Bryant too.
I love New Orleans piano so much
Im so tired
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@SymTrkl absolutely go for it!!! As I told someone else, doing crime is the important part. I encourage everyone to come up with their own creative transcrime. Maybe peeing with your stolen shark in a federal building in Idaho after driving there with your Kansas driver's license? The sky's the limit!
One more from today's excursion: I think maybe a porcupine did this?