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not to be straight-phobic (i love the straights) but sometimes i forget how they don't get at all the social subtexts, the subcultural lores, the insanity of the everyday, the excitement of performativity, the crypto-euphoria of codes and tropes.

growing up through various queers communities unlearning relearning new clichées and energies and mixing them.

like you know from queer situationship archetypes, online trans discord, lesbian masc fuckboy energy, straight t4t, fem4fem succubus, sex po kinky scene rave party, monster-like drag cultures, gay-dolls, autogynephilia reappropriation, top-bottom, sub-dom, butch & futch, lesbian-transmasc/fem alliances, cynical biphobia or queerphobia, attention-whore jester bi, shy autistic genderless transmascs, shane lesbians, cat/puppy girls, voguing, trauma-slut meme admin, gamer girls named lilith, blahaj femboys, spices-named nonbinaries, chasers & trades, lesbians harm-wrestling, nerd polycules, litteraly some vampires, dyke4fag pet-like relationship, transmasc bodybuilder baby-girling the lesbians, fanfiction whores, very-mean-gays, charismatic praise kink doll, etc etc

and then i try to communicate something to some straight and i can see their brain going like gougou gaga so wait woman not really woman is mean and you like oh i like when men are nice

as an horror movie fan, there is this thing that slightly annoy me with people who don't often watch horror, that as soon the movie is finished there is an immediate need for ranking the scary factor of it, often to say that in the end it wasn't really scary (as they thought it would be).

horror to me is interesting because it's a genre misunderstood for a sensation. and it's a very codified genre, in which most movies, even the more artsy experimental ones, heavily rely on characters tropes and cinematographic codes . which is also often why the tasteful film lovers often dislike horror because they associate the their overdone up-cycling of codes and methods as something superficial, generic, that lacks of depth, creativity or reasoning. when codes start being shared by a mass of media it can easily become vulgar. but it's also why i am so fascinated with horror as a genre, in the same way i nurture a singular relationship with gender or language.

horror becomes powerful by repeatedly creating senses of familiarity through the uses of codes, then breaking it. which makes it incredibly contextual: an "effective" horror movie mostly is so because of the horror meta or momentum of that time, and audience expectations.

crazy how artists (not restricted to digital art but like all art practices) are particularly stuck in mainstream social networks like instagram because "we need it to brand our work to pay rent, so this became where we build our career" while more and more people are actually just leaving those platforms. it feels silly to imagine a bunch of artists shouting in the hypercapitalist ruin-to-profit-loop mainstream social network "look what i just made its my new project". i say that without judgment, as i'm on insta myself (though i don't post about work only shitpost & impulsive thoughts and pics), but the idea that "artistic practices become an obstacle to social change, in the big schemes of thing" (?) in that sense is really silly

i identify as, i identify as, ok girl what happened to being something

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babes ive two questions
1. Do you think my bus will arrive soon?
2. Do you think we can host a website on it?

horror game idea: the game is a browser, you explore the web, with added custom stuff like

* hidden ghostly inserted divs, that appears only if certain condition are met on current website (like one of them only appear if there are 3 lists elements on that page, or one of them only appear if an image is broken)
* jumpscare when pressing random link
* websites being eaten and disapearing entierly of the web, but you can bookmark them (using ressources you collect) so they don't dissapear
* an inventory with tools and weapon to protect yourself, you collect them on certain website
* a healthbar, or other stat bar, like clicking on hyperlinks uses stamina or magix
* fictional websites (only exist in this browser), you have to find all 12 of them (there on the ghostly inserted divs), and they all are like boss, like one is a link labyrinth, another is a puzzle where you need to open the inspector, another change depending on the time of the day

other than being very fun it would teach people to navigate the web in cool ways, and the speedrun would change every day because the web change everyday

Hello it's grumpy doriane that is going to die on her hill of fuck AI and is about to lecture everyone with her new little tale.

Something i sometimes hear (from people who are mostly against uses of LLM for say artistic practice) is that for the boring annoying stuff like administrative hell if it can help let's use it. Because there is no point in romanticising this type of task that was made with the intention to be an obstacle (legal or medical application, whatever). And I get, if it help it help.

But i am worried that individual shortcuts (like GPT prompt and summary) in laborious task can, in the long term, participate to normalise the inhuman obstacle they are. If more people make it through admin hell by using AI while laws and system worsen in the rise of fascism, it gives excuses to set it as the new expectation for all people. Individuals shortcut in masses impacts collective systems evolutions.
It's a similar story than with any automatisation of labor we can think of: it creates unhuman standards for the other humans that doesn't have the automatisation.

I say individual because, as much as it can be a survival or necessary tactic, there is a tendency, or a temptation, to make us falsely believe it has been solved because we solved it for ourselve, thanks to a technique.

"creative queer collective" oh you mean

* based on freelance practices, so based on the marketability and hype of their productions, leading to the commodification of queer struggle into an aesthetic or brand
* creating socio-economical traps by using terminologies and concepts that give a sense of safety or liberation from a system while perpetuating the same logic and biases of that system
* fake horizontality that without strong caring structures falls into exploitative, extractive and tokenisation mechanism of the most marginalized, often trans and poc.
* disillusioned empowerment when the collective get mainstream recognition that is used to hide unchecked self-criticality
* pushing forward the liberal logic of self-branding on individual identities as part of the work, participating into the vibe of "not being queer is uncool", leading to the coexistence of privileged young LGBTs having insecurities "they are not queer enough" while the visibly queers and precarious are getting killed and rights are being removed
* "a marketable image of resistance that leaves power structures intact"

im sorry babe but fuck "creative queer collective" i've been deceived enough and the wounds make me remember. i only believe in decentralized materialist liberation movements and autonomous structures for mutual support.

"i could date a trans woman"
"i find trans women hot"
"i love trans women"

ok ok but do you think a trans woman would date YOU. think about it im dead serious.

@detours_anachroniques @oblomov @NIGHTEN @victor @gahlord @xenophora @neopostmodern

• also how an obvious (since already there?) alternative is the use personal websites, with some form of aggregation implemented in the browser to create sense of connectivity, visibility, discoverability that can be necessary for economic reality of certain artistic practices, but that also swap a dependency for another (browsers, or browser-extensions), and that could look alike activitypub to some extend

All that said, I am still thinking of how the fediverse has potential for radicallity. Because what we could have is not the institutions to move as the main motor but the artists with influence moving AND bringing in their own scenes/crowds/people in dedicated instances. Like let the emo music scene make their own instance, and the tatoo artist make their own instance, or the DJs, etc. Because then they will be the ones leading collectively the slow (and difficult) evolution of their own infrastructure and culture! The institution could be welcome in, as an account, but not the ones to entirely decide of such evolution, which could invert or-rebalance some power relationships.

hey you, big star
tell me, when it's over

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