The Fish Wade Through Black Jade

i watched skinanarink last night and i've been so deeply unsettled and scared since how do i make this go away how do i get the gene that made other people think this movie was gay bullshit

@monkey@brain.worm.pink @lizzie@brain.worm.pink now i want one >_<

@monkey@brain.worm.pink @lizzie@brain.worm.pink don't get a breakfast burrito but as a breakfast burrito enjoyer i understand the horrific dreadful struggle you're going through

according to jung in symbols of transformation there are two kinds of thinking, directed and non-directed. directed thinking takes effort and is a social form of thinking in that its patterned like and by language, where non-directed thinking is more a free association of images and ideas. unless he said all thinking is social but idk if he did. he claims that ancient peoples prioritized non-directed thinking, which is less rational and closer to dreaming than directed thinking, as evidenced by mythology and the strange fixations of pre-enlightenment thought. this is for the purpose of supporting the practice of interpreting dreams similarly to myths, since ancient people were more steeped in dreams than we are. jung uses the idea of the evolution of mankind and civilization towards more rational thought to use ancient thought to better understand the unconscious since directed thinking is more conscious while non-directed thinking and dreams are less conscious. admittedly i need to reread the essay i only read ot once my understanding is limited

i don't think it's possible to understand the divine light severed meme if you're not a schizophrenic who had to go on meds

@swampwitch@social.xenofem.me yeah it's from the introduction to symbols of transformation , which is what i tried to summarize a chapter from

@swampwitch@social.xenofem.me "Individual consciousness is only the flower and fruit of a season, sprung from the perennial rhizome beneath the earth; and it would find itself in better accord with the truth if it took the existence if the rhizome into its calculations. For the root matter is the mother of all things."

my disgusting evil meds are making me feel dull as a rock

@monkey@brain.worm.pink @lizzie@brain.worm.pink literally

i used to be so anti-kali yuga as a concept but it really makes sense to me now idk like ofc this is an age of madness. it just kinda feels like the world is always ending and has always been ending though. God who knows i guess i'm apocalypse-agnostic

i told my best friend i thought all religions were true and she asked if that included scientology and like if i wanna be truly radical about it i would say yes in that it is an attempt to describe what is indescribable but idk maybe i'm not truly radical i just mean like islam and christianity and hinduism and buddhism are equally valid paths to God. i think scientology probably is true its just different. to say grifts weren't included in God would deny God's infinity so idk

call me ouroboros the way i be sucking myself in the shower

had a dream that i was at a public park or an airport or something and my old friend rob was doing a poetry reading and i just absolutely hated his poetry. then there was something about my childhood house idk

@nyx@social.xenofem.me @cyb3rm0shp1t@social.xenofem.me yeah it's kinda fun that i'm this scared it's also just like i have shit to do and it's keeping me from falling asleep lol. it gave me crazy nightmares too almost cuz it feels structured like a dream

its great to know that krishna is kali because i love them both so much

@haematophage depends on the disability but yeah

also she exists because Krishna was trying to hide a lovers tryst with Radha so she's also a lesbian idk

it's so strange to me that kali should be my favorite when i value quiet so much, considering she is bhimanadini, making an extremely loud noise

idk how i'm supposed to interpret the bhagavad gita as a shakta. it doesn't help that i'm reading the iskcon version which is actually just dreadful and i can tell even with my rudimentary knowledge of sanskrit

i want chicken soup

another epithet of kali is the one who governs words starting with the letter k or ka which is more evidence of the kali-katak connection

girls may call me mommy but will i ever be mother?

@monkey@brain.worm.pink that's true. i can only aspire to this kind of behavior. caring for others is scary

@kaia@shitposter.world i love when gay dudes have huge tits like this