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I’m still alive, thank you for asking! Still 24/7 caregiver doing everything. (See post 5 months ago for details: @crone@chaosfem.tw.)

What else? 🤔 Hmm… I rejoined #SecondLife (see pic). That’s about it. Otherwise, still trans, still a witch, still fat, still crazy, and still have a strong north-of-England accent.

A rare update, with apologies…

Q: Where is Sable? Why isn’t she posting?
A: Sable is still here. Very busy, very tired, and pacing herself. Please let me explain…

After months of testing, last August my wife was diagnosed with PSP, progressive supranuclear palsy, which is a rare, incurable, and always terminal neurodegenerative illness. Her balance and her speech have deteriorated greatly. I am now her 24/7 caregiver and cannot leave her side for more than an hour. It’s a lot.

Meanwhile, my transition has uncovered something I hadn’t expected. For me, it’s not about how I present, which is a relief because I’ve never wanted to spend much time or energy on that. I would rather be inconspicuous, something that’s already hard when I’m 6 foot 2, 300 pounds, in my mid-70s, and have a strong English accent—let alone if decide to be femme! My transition instead is only about how I feel, and it doesn’t matter to me if people can’t see that.

So I’m still here, enjoying being able to feel a full raft of emotions for the first time in my life, and understanding what it is to be a woman for the first time in my life. I’m grateful to all my female friends who accept me as I am: as one of them, and not as some failed in-between.

I haven’t been posting much, but I’m still here! So here’s a selfie. One of my daughters sent me a silk scarf for my birthday a couple of weeks ago, and last week I wore it to voice training.

I’ve a good friend who lives not far away from me in the Denver metro area. They’re AFAB, early 30s, but see themselves as nonbinary and have wanted top surgery for years. They’re also wondering about micro-dosing T. If anyone can recommend resources—including reading, support, groups, online and local to Colorado—I’ll pass them on. Thanks!

@JenWithGravy The irony is, by ⭐️ing your post in order to show “me too” solidarity, I’m admitting I perceived it. And now I’m even replying—damn. 😣

@WrenArcher@beige.party That’s a fabulous story—I love it! So glad you escaped. 🙂 I used to shoot barebow 20-25 years ago, and I still have a Browning Olympian takedown recurve somewhere. I just use the arrows for “craft” purposes nowadays 🧙🏻‍♀️ though perhaps I should at least string it up and see if I can even pull its 44 lbs. 😬

@CordiallyChloe@tech.lgbt Yes! If only I could still get it. 😔

@CordiallyChloe@tech.lgbt ooo… thank you! Also “Origin: Sweden”! 🤭