mastodon 4.6.9I am barely holding it together and my coping mechanisms have teeth.
Lvl 48, chronic #migraine, #neurodiverse mess with #ADHD and #BPD, wannabe #artist and wannabe #gamer from 🇩🇪 #Germany.
Games are keeping me from losing my mind entirely. I'm either obsessed with something or I don't care. There is nothing in between. Except DA. I'm always obsessed with DA. #fedi22
My fave #videogames are:
#DragonAge
#MassEffect
#Cyberpunk2077
#BaldursGate3
#TheWitcher
#TheElderScrolls
#Warcraft
#TheSims
In Germany we don't say:
"What's wrong with you?"
We say...
Hast du Lack gesoffen?
(Did you drink paint?)
Hat dir jemand ins Gehirn geschissen?
(Did someone shit into your brain?)
Hast du noch alle Latten am Zaun?
(Do you still have all your planks on the fence?)
Brennt's bei dir?
(Is it burning at your place?)
Bei dir piepts wohl?
(Is it chirping at your place?)
Hast du einen an der Waffel?
(Do you have one at the waffle?)
You're welcome.
695 mods
2 weapon mods
288 clothing mods
The priorities are clear.
Violence: sufficient
Outfits: never enough
Maybe Bioware should figure out why people still get goosebumps after 12 years when listening to the Inquisition soundtracks, if they want to get their magic back. Aside all the other shit they need to figure out.
Can we talk about how it is 3 am where I live and my brain just went: What if Solas, but in Night City and Vallaslin are cyberware?
And now it won't shut up.
IF I HEAR THE WORD UNDERAGE WOMAN ONE MORE FUCKING TIME... 🤬
There is no such thing as an underage woman. They are girls.
Isn't it *funny* how they call grown ass women girls to belittle them. But when they need to talk themselves out of sexual abuse of a minor, suddenly literal girls are *women*. 🤢🤢🤢
I'm so fucking sick of this time and age.
The violin in Lost Elf is like "I know you're hurting. Come here. It'll be okay."
It is not trying to solve the pain.
It is making space for it.
😢
"The Chantry teaches us that it is the hubris of men which brought the darkspawn into our world."
The Chantry is full of shit.
Recovering from a migraine with a headache and nausea. Yay.
It's funny how much head-canon snippets you can figure out by decorating a space.
Like ""Why does this [thing] exist?"
And bam, you have a head-canon lore explanation.
In case you're wondering how my #Cyberpunk2077 playthrough goes. It doesn't. I'm still building. 🙈
Ah, Easter... because nothing says 'risen from the dead' like a fertility mascot handing out chocolate eggs. 🐰🥚
I have this very ambitious project of doing a photo shoot with my crVsh for a song on her playlist per day. It won't be each day, because fuck my migraines, but I'm trying, okay.
Two are done.
[left] New Years Day - Anthem of the Unwanted
[right] Korn - Freak on a Leash
Okay. Easter Monday sucked. Badly.
- around 4h of sleep
- pretty short and mild migraine
- nightmare
- insomnia
- being able to sleep after about 8h
- MASSIVE MIGRAINE
- getting up on Tuesday being barely able to look straight.
I know I shouldn't, but fuck this body. Out of spoons when I only got up. Spent it all on making breakfast.
Wow... Windows 11 Explorer is really out to pissing me off today. 🤬
Uhm... somewhere... high up.. in Arroyo...
"Playing Evil, what Evil things have you done?" Proceeds to show a video of him kicking the squirrel.
My guy. That's not evil. That is justified. For ruining your shoe. Just saying.
The odd thing about the brain is that the same three-pound lump that writes symphonies and invents CRPGs can also decide, without warning, to run a pain simulation intense enough to make philosophers question the design of the universe.
Johnny: "V? V! You're fucking dying. And you decide to redecorate your pad? Are you for fucking real right now?"
🙈 🙈 🙈
Neon Coloured Memories - 2067
Barely got any sleep last night. Hungry. In pain.
I just saw that the Legendary Edition of Mass Effect is on sale over on Steam. For 5.99. If you haven't played it yet, go get it.
Okay, River's driving skills are glitching again, and I cannot help but imagine Johnny commenting on them.
"V, I died once already. I am not doing a second round because officer jawline here thinks traffic laws are a corporate conspiracy."
😂
From this day forward, I don't suffer from migraines anymore. I call them brainquakes.
My body is on a rampage against me today. Again. *sigh*
So, here I thought I was done with my Glen apartment makeover. Yeah, nah. I just figured out how to add interactions. Nevermind. 🙈
There is one quest mod I always install.
One More Light 😢
Did someone open the troll enclosure on Reddit today?
They seem to be out in full force. Either they all genuinely believe this garbage, or the trolls got day release.
Fascinating species. Loud mating calls. Zero self-awareness.
Heywood Days - 2072