Maybe the reason we shake our legs is not because we like shakin them up n down, but maybe because we miss having our tail.
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DeviantXS
@DeviantXS@pony.social
mastodon 4.7.3+glitchBeginner Graphic Designer. (If 🔞 DNI)
Has GAD, Chronic Sleep Apnea. (other stuff tbd)
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Joined December 16, 2022
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Was at the pharmacy, got $2 bucks to use free because of some promotion by the pharmacy, so I grab a piece of candy & try to use my $2 bucks.
Then for some reason, the discount isn’t applying and I try asking why it’s not going through. They say I have to pay, then I point at the promotion and while doing that I accidentally say…….
“I got vbucks”
:xenia_sob:
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And I know that is like low usage for some, but the moment I open a web browser and some creative studio app.
Well... you can see where this is going.
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@erkhyan@yiff.life I agree.
The command line should be a last resort if a GUI solution is impossible which is extremely rare, so yeah… it is creepy that Linux folk are completely okay in infodumping so many commands to people that they almost look like hieroglyphs to me.
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Okay, installing GOG Galaxy from the MS Store since apparently enforces more app isolation, and honestly considering it just trashed my session… yeah you go get isolated GOG.
Designer: Sweet, got a computer strong enough to render bigger documents on InDesign with a decent GPU!
Adobe: That's sick bro, you even got a 2k display, right?
Designer: Uhh, its 1080p.
Adobe: ......... so.... about that 3d acceleration.....
You don't get 3D acceleration if your display is not greater than 2K, holy fk Adobe.
I’ve resetted my iMac for the first time in almost five years of its life.
I ran into a very weird chaotic issue where a few system processes kept rebooting themselves failing to complete their tasks, I tried fixing them but didn’t have much success.
Resetting felt honestly kinda scary, something I can’t relate with a Windows device, I sometimes reset Windows devices on a yearly fkin basis lmao.
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@cloudhop@equestria.social investors: that sounds good, but what if you… just change it slightly, and call it… “inSane Society Simulator”? (Nudge nudge)
…”what? Goes against your beliefs and vision? You don’t want AI/ML? Thank you for your time but we’ll take a look elsewhere.”
Me: “I probably don’t have OCD, I don’t really get that disgusted as I used to with contamination, maybe I am overthinking this.”
Brain: (horrible thought that does not align with my values and creates impulsivity)
Me: “its just a thought, not me. Just a thought…”
Fucking hate my brain, this fucking sucks.
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@cadey@pony.social Triangle shutting, complacency in the ideas? Creating comfort which creates the closed loop?
Huuh, well I’m gonna have a bit of a mind dance.
Maybe unbound meaning adaptable to situations and core beliefs… well I don’t know…
Still an intriguing dream for sure.
If I keep it up in college for two more semesters, maybe even three if I take the small one.
I could graduate with an associates in 2027 with nearly no debt.
I can barely process this, holy shit I thought I was behind.
I’m gonna need some time but I’m happy.
I can finally say that I've accidentally P ranked in Ultrakill in layer 7.
I'll get to Layer 8 (out now) at some other point but yeah that was neat as hell.
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@majorlinux@toot.majorshouse.com @erkhyan@yiff.life this is so true lmao!
Fedora is an intriguing operating system.
One moment, I’m happily using it normally, and the next moment… panic mode. I frantically start checking every step to ensure I’ve done everything correctly to avoid a misconfiguration.
For example, if I want to install virt-manager to vm something… I have to use the dnf group virtualization instead of the gui discover virt-manager.
If I don’t do it through dnf, missing components shall arise. So what’s the fucking point of having it in discover/gui in the first place if it’ll miss the additional stuff?
Its like installing a game but you’ve only installed the engine, the game files are missing and you must get them somewhere else.
Like what kind of thought process is that? We seriously need to start fixing that to avoid unnecessary fuck ups like this.
The number going up means I’m winning, right?
Yesterday I went to my psychiatrist and re-assessed my status.
She believes I have ADHD, or some type of it now.
We ruled out CPAP.
We ruled out Depression and Anxiety. (dosage was increased last time) [still bout the same]
We ruled out my sanity after stabilizing with my therapist.
We ruled out thyroid.
We ruled out blood tests.
We ruled out sugar.
So… we are adjusting one more time.
Bupropion dosage has been increased & if little effect, then I’m jumping to a pure ADHD med.
I am unsure how to tackle this or process this, I constantly tried avoiding a pure ADHD med but perhaps if this doesn’t work well… then it might be time.
If the bupropion med increase makes me remain the same… I don’t know if I should go further, I really have some weird fear of medication screwing my brain still. I know I’m in good hands but this is different and can be extremely life changing for good or bad.
I guess I’ll see where we land soon.
I’m noticing my Mastodon feed is becoming quite exhausting.
Might need to adjust or become more ignorant, I can’t have content just casually give me existential dread on a constant basis y’know?
Like yeah be aware, but also be aware of your mental health.
Amazon forced me to get a passkey ffs.
I thought I was just logging in casually.
At my clinic for next psychiatrist appointment, so far it’s been a rocky road and roller coaster hills of progress.
And yet it feels like I’ve done one inch of progress, ugh.
Family matters also aren’t great at the moment, and it doesn’t help that everyone is becoming more insistent, pushy. I need the opposite please.
Well, I think I’ll be going back to the Windows hellfest now.
I have enjoyed my Fedora KDE experience, but I need software that simply refuses to run on Linux.
Honestly, I don’t want to switch but my degree demands it.
For a year & a half of running Linux, I’d say it was pretty awesome despite all the warts.
Oh well, here comes the Adobe slop.
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Regardless, it does seem like the antivirus/malware/heuristic apps have improved.
Just don't use Norton, McAfee, AVG, and Avast. There are better pieces of software that respect you more than those pos.
Therapy session sucked.
Got another therapist, in training, and felt ignored as hell.
I know it’s the ‘first day’ but I lost myself in the void and my thoughts and plans are all jumbled.
I hope next session goes better.
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I guess if I’ll spend a dime for such new device, I’ll for sure as shit aim for 64gb minimum.
I don’t think 32gbs is gonna be enough for the next few years, apps just keep chugging ram like its lemonade.
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Right now I don’t feel tired, but feel oddly focused and relaxed.
But there are days it doesn’t do that and instead just makes me want to sleep.
But apparently you aren’t supposed to feel relaxed? Just energetic?
I’ll keep an eye around my consumption but this does not bode well lmao.
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I can’t believe this is an email I got.
I also can’t believe this is real but that’s the dystopian milkshake I guess.
Dream
Sis: hey bro, can you make my laptop go fast?
Me: sure.
(Looks at the laptop)
[Celeron, 64gb eMMC, 4gb of ram, HP]
Yeah no fuck that, the only way that thing goes faster is if you use Windows XP. I don’t even think Linux would like to run on that thing.
Told her to get a new laptop instead, sometimes it’s just not worth “fixing” something by using hacks.
Just had one of those extremely open ended discussions in my head.
Where I see the universe vast, yet I feel like I’m a machine that follows patterns & expected behaviors. Rules that are only fit for certain use cases, input & output with different variations from modifiers.
In a way, I guess I can kinda say… I feel like a machine.
And my thoughts kept going into weird places like how the universe is so strict and why we don’t have magic but magic was the explanation for things that science had yet to explain…
And my brain just kept eating whatever the hell that thought process was eating.
Neurons almost predictable… patterns… I see more stronger sense…
…
Sorry, maybe this was a bit of a brain dump lol.
Mental Health / Therapy Exp (-)
Baby steps I guess.Replying to on pony.social
Okay, I did the thing I needed to do that was overdue for the past two weeks. But I finally did it.
(Checks scar)
Yeah, looks like its fully healed.
[notices two black dots]
That’s not a stitch I think…
[feels the strong plastic pull]
…
They left a fucking stitch in.
SON OF A…
My bank is starting to piss me off. I withdraw or buy stuff and my Bank tells me I don’t have enough funds despite seeing the prior balance being enough before charge.
I think some sort of hidden fee is being applied now but I can’t fucking guess. You’d think it be like a late fee but nooooo, its always 35 cents for some reason.
Whatever.
If you need any more evidence that we are in a dystopian society, here it is.
I feel sick.
I feel like good sales and discounts are often given and done at the worst possible times to discourage getting a good deal and instead become forced to pay full price.
Like I never can get anything on a good sale or deal, and if I do it’s only because the stars aligned & aided my escape from burning money.
Or maybe I’m just tired about this economy, maybe that.
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I like how half of the Internet results say that getting stitches removed isn’t as painful as people make it out to be, but my experience was very much rough. It wasn’t crazy bad but there is some pain to manage and you must grab something, specially if the area is extremely sensitive.
So yeah, stitch removal is still painful… its just a matter of how sensitive you are. Unfortunately, I seem to feel every pull and push so that’s great for me lmao.
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Random system error, got it expedited. I guess weird shit does tend to happen.