I sculpted and painted little mushrooms for the base of the dwarf’s #miniatures #miniaturepainting
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Drew
@dharmadischarge@disabled.social
mastodon 4.7.3I am from the USA.
Grunge music, industrial metal, sludge and 77 punk though I like most 80s proto alt rock as well.
I make stuff: Music, art, and poetry.
I love games workshop stuff and retro games.
I have paranoid schizophrenia, ocd and severe depression.
My profile pic is a selfie of my awkward smile.
My header image is John Blanche painting of airships in a storm
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Joined November 17, 2022
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first one of the plastiboo influenced sketches I feel like I made suit my vibe
call this one Mona Lisa at peace with the situation
been really obsessed with plastiboo and strangehouse this is obviously under there influence.
I always wanted to learn to carve wood I think this is a pretty solid first attempt at whittling and I am content with it.
Now… I must learn to sharpen knives…
Anyway peace and love
I am thinking of adapting grim metal bedlam to a mork bork based skirmish system kinda like for hidden psalm but I am not a lawyer… can anyone give me the cliff notes of how an open license works? I have spent years developing the setting and don’t want to lose the ownership of my setting. Or get sued for not checking a box. All help is appreciated
first drawing I have done in a long time
I have been journaling a lot lately in A5 recycled kraft journals... about my life and also developing creative projects in.
This process seems to work for me.
I am still working on my novel though had some personal problems that made me go off and be introspective and such.
Main projects on the go are...
1 primordial maximum (my novel)
2 Grim metal bedlam (my skirmish toy solders game in the same setting).
also trying to make the rpg in the same setting star punks in the same book.
#xteink made a lock screen for an epub reader using amano art
I understand the premise is sort of disturbing but it makes me think about a lot of stuff in new ways and if I can refine it and make it work may finally finished my first novel.
Saw the new Mario movie and really enjoyed it
xteink x4 (short clif notes review of reading tablet)
Love this device the most elegant piece of cheaper electronics hardware you can buy (except maybe a miyoo mini plus)
It is project gutenburgs best friend.
I have the font set to large and it show about a short paragraph on screen at a time. Turns reading an addictive and easy habit that helps detox from YouTube and other addictive predatory media that has the world into dawn of the dead.
I really love this thing more detailed review later
New book review for those interested.
#blog #blogger
#bookreview #scifi #peterwatts
https://m1a1-thesockmonkey.blogspot.com/2026/04/blindsight-by-peter-watts-thoughts-and.html
Shibumi review for those interested.
https://m1a1-thesockmonkey.blogspot.com/2026/04/shibumi-by-trevanian-thoughts-and.html
Increasingly I think of paranoid schizophrenia as non consensual ego death. Where you can feel the very inclination towards a verifiable sense of self as a delusion all the while that belief is the delusion.
“Human beings are predatory animals when they are functioning. I am a broken animal surrounded by apex predators that discredit my complaints of hostility.” Something that slipped out in a conversation with my uncle.
Today’s adventure include watching my Blu-ray of the prince movie purple rain.
Starting to workout again (lost almost seventy pounds then put back on twenty after I quit for eight months).
Just going through hard self assessment phase again.
So in closing my point is.
1 paranoid schizophrenics are victims or circumstances and objective violence.
2 reality testing is not the best way to treat schizophrenia as an end of itself because the erosion of the sense of self is objectively the major trauma.
3 the current diagnosis practice is shit because it prioritizes whether your a liability then if you need help.
4 If a dame breaks from poor infrastructure or a storm does it change the result?
Non consensual ego death is the idea that paranoid schizophrenics lose traction with objective reality and then lose social standing and become lost or victims of functioning people. The idea is that you lose your sense of self and contemporary therapy encourages people to reality test. Buttons schizophrenic who has had sustained psychosis they have lost there sense of self and need active assistance to help rebuild it and none of this can happen without stopping active symptoms.
The fact that ginger wildheart is not more famous breaks my heart
Today’s adventure in being a sentient being includes: listening to the wild hearts and Devin Townsend.
About to finish Kurt Vonneguts book breakfast to champions (might be one of the most bitter things I have ever read.)
And trying to get more consistent with prayer and meditation on the word as a daily thing again.
“Will rock you like a boomerang!” - the renaissance men.
Went to emergency room last night over infection and then took Luna to the vet this morning so we are both on antibiotics.
Neurons that fire together, wire together.
Took a break from blogging the last few days mostly because I am tired of dwelling on the past and my mental illness.
But have thought of writing some book reviews tonight. I normally wait a while to process my thought but may be fun to process some opinions publicly.
Replying to
@Aaidanbird I would have voted but I missed it. I think it would have got more people if the had seen it
Including the chessboard image in the post because it wouldn’t upload to my blog.
#blog #blogger #gamedesign #boardgames
https://m1a1-thesockmonkey.blogspot.com/2026/02/carousel-in-dark.html
Replying to
@PanickedFoodie@disabled.social I am already having a hard time finding people from the sheer number of posts in the local part of mastodon. But I understand the help it could provide for people looking for friends with a similar diagnosis.
Spent the last couple of hours researching refrence art for the aether storm deck for grim metal bedlam. Though I have also been calling it the deck of many consequences.
Mechanically psychic abilities are kinda like a deck building game. Narratively they are channeling from the same source of power.
Also working on a resident evil inspired inventory for for the models.
The of grim metal bedlam is have as elegant a system as possible then disrupt if like nightmare chess kinda.
“You’re not grown up till the day they put you six feet under.” - Keith Richards
I am also am currently reading Peter watts novel blindsight and Adam Johnson’s the orphan masters son. And last but not least the power of the dog by don Winslow.
It is hard giving a bird antibiotics.
Wrote another three thousand words sense the last post but are much rougher
But I am enjoying writing it for now
Meds are making me a little dizzy today not sure why but not feeling good
Today’s adventure in pet ownership my bird Luna was sitting on my shoulder trying to pluck my beard hairs as I told her “are you being aggressive or playful?”
it is the fiction of them not having an objective self. The self illusion is lost by not having traction on objective reality and not being able to social defend against the species they are part of that so happens to be the apex predator of the planet. As they become taken advantage of and know they can neither trust reality or rely on others to shepherd them back towards it this combine the with having to be psychotic for over a year is the death blow to the fiction of the self.
just a small update on some projects and such
https://m1a1-thesockmonkey.blogspot.com/2026/08/daily-blog-8-18-26.html