During my summer vacation, I let my beard grow, not shaving on the sides as usual. To my surprise, that boosted the masculine side of my gender above demiboy that I've thought being the end point of the main axis of my gender. Another Gender Wiki hyperfixation ensued.
Neoboy seems like a good label, the end point of the axis. And the axis as a whole can be called neoboyflux. Of course, there are still the other sides when I move away from this axis, but this is where I spend most of my time.
It's taken long but I'm so happy how comfortable I'm now with the masculine side of my gender.
#NonBinary #GenderQueer #GenderFluid #NeoBoy #NeoBoyFlux
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Dimestore Diamond 
@DimestoreDiamond@anarres.family
mastodon 4.8.0-alpha.3+glitch.anarres.family• A #NonBinary #GenderQueer #GenderFluid #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD academic.
• Hatched in 2/2023.
• Not my main account.
• Here to document my queer thoughts and experiences and to hang out with other queer people.
• Out in the real world for a growing number of people.
• Love nail polish and dangling earrings.
• Pronouns they/them.
Avatar: A drawing of a nonbinary person grinning. They have long blonde hair, glasses and a beard.
Header: Nonbinary flag.
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Mention of porn and cuming
I did go through some processing with regard to how I look at women, what is sexual attraction, what is aesthetic attraction, and is there a component of wanting to be them. No, not really. I don't get gender envy. I do, however, get "freedom envy." It's not related to gender but the perceived feeling of being free.
As for what is sexual vs. aesthetic attraction, I think I still have them somewhat confused. I think it's more about aesthetics than I thought. I like looking at pretty faces. Getting a firmer grasp of my demisexual brand of being ace has helped in this.
One revelation with my sexuality was to notice there being a huge gap in how I feel when looking at porn before and after cuming. It feels wild, almost a disconnect. I think I'm way more vanilla than I thought. And I'd rather watch than participate in the scenes.
#NonBinary #asexual #DemiSexual
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@liv@social.stim.toys Those are very good points! I doubt I navigate the world in a very cis guy way.
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@liv@social.stim.toys The point with that sentence was to establish that, first, I recognized a trans sibling in the wild. (Maybe I should've used the word transfem, btw.) Second, it was used to imply the setting of this short communication as I was quite heavily male-presenting. This in relation to my question. Basically, I started wondering whether it's ok for a bearded person to compliment a transfem they don't know, and I felt the first sentence is crucial information for this.
Btw, I almost never compliment people I don't know unless under the influence of alcohol. When sober, these rare occurrences are mainly a form of solidarity and spreading joy towards trans siblings I've clocked.
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