Me on the first day of autumn:
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Bubotomy
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Whenever there's discourse about something I check and see who's on the wrong side of it and it's always the worst people in the world. Surely that's a coincidence.
Nobody really knows.
I could use a foggy forest trek.
#Music Song of the day:
I miss people who don't miss me.
Why does the phrase "to be honest" exist? Shouldn't honesty be the default position? If you start a statement with "to be honest" are you not implying your previous statements were dishonest & you are now indicating you are going to be honest?
"There between the curtains was the October night, calm and lovely, with a star or two caught in the yellowing trees."
- Virginia Woolf
I could use a good long moon stare. HBU?
I have a near constant urge to run away from everything and live alone in a cave on an island. It's a hard battle to keep those thoughts in check.
#Autism
#MentalHealth
I have all this stuff going on in my head every day, and what really makes me mad is when people act like I could just CHOOSE to not let it affect me. It doesn't work that way.
#Autism #Autistic #MentalHealth
A thing I absolutely hate: when I ask someone WHY is something, and their response is "you know why."
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
WHY WOULD I ASK IF I ALREADY KNOW???????????????????
#Autism
Why do we have bathrooms and bedrooms and living rooms and laundry rooms and dining rooms but not kitchenrooms? It's just the kitchen. Also why is bathroom one word but dining room two words?
Replying to
@SleepyCatten@cultofshiv.wtf I don't know, I'm just always wondering what I should be doing, always uncertain.
Why am I here? What am I doing? I don't know. Don't know.
I am intensely averse to change, even when I KNOW the change will benefit me. This fucking brain of mine.
Random thing I don't like: the concept of generations. Humans aren't born in monolithic blocks. We're born continuously & live differently. People from the same generation have completely different beliefs & experiences yet we all get shoehorned into a group that someone made up.
Random thing that bothers me: this part of Alaska. Why is it there? It looks like it shouldn't be. It looks tacked on, like an afterthought. The rest of the border is completely straight then, chaos. WHY.
I've been diagnosed with:
- Spina bifida occulta
- Severe degenerative disc disease
- Congenital L5 pars interarticularis defects
- Grade 1 L5-S1 anterior listhesis
#TodayILearned the pipe in the term "pipe dream" refers to an opium pipe. I don't know why I never made that connection.
Need.
I could use a good wander in a foggy forest.
Today I learned author Roald Dahl was buried with a box of chocolates, a bottle of wine, a bunch of pencils, and, for some reason...a power saw.
I often choose familiar misery over unfamiliar joy.
I got nothing to say right now. Just tired.
#Music Song of the day:
I don't like anything spicier than black pepper but I do like black pepper a lot.
Nobody understands how bad my back pain is, even after telling them a thousand times.
This waterfall in Indonesia is pretty.
#Music Song of the day:
In a chronic state of non-understanding.
Days come and days go.
And I still don't know.
I loved this show when I saw it back in the 90s. Haven't seen it since, wonder if it's still good. Just happened to get the theme song stuck in my head today.
🎵 Hopeless indecision's got a hold of me
Yeah, yeah, it's plain to see
I'm a product of society
There's something wrong with me
There's something wrong with me 🎵
I've gotten into watching bread making videos. Even the most basic bread recipe looks delicious. Relaxing.
"Tomorrow will probably be another day like today. Happiness may never come my way. I know that. But it's probably best to go to sleep believing that it will surely come, tomorrow it will come."
- Osamu Dazai
What do you do if you're unhappy but you have no idea what, if anything would make you happy?
WHY DID NO ONE TELL ME THIS EXISTS?!?!?!?!?!?????!?!
https://store.steampowered.com/app/2023050/Lighthouse_Keeper/
There is an emptiness in me that I don't think can be filled.
I'm not sure if I enjoy anything or if I just do things to fill time and act as if that's "enjoyment."
Sometimes I wonder if I died a long time ago and I'm just pretending to be alive.
#Music Song of the day:
I find a cool picture of a lighthouse: 😃
I realize it's AI generated: 😭