One of the mods did not like some of my posts, I don't fully understand why? Something about German law and not being able to reference the tiny mustache guy's uhh doings. I don't know what I can say without this getting removed too but I hyperbolic ally compared the US and Israel to a previous German regime in a way that sounded like I condone it I guess?
For the record:
Genocide is very bad and I do not like anyone who does it. I do not like American evangelical zionists in particular because they are super excited to watch children die in Gaza.
I was (perhaps mistakenly) under the impression that mastodon is a platform of mostly like-minded leftists who would be in the loop enough on current events to understand what I'm referring to but given the culture of being disconnected from the rest of the mainstream internet I understand the error in my thinking. I will act accordingly in future posts and attempt to make it clear using things like tone tags to further extrapolate my meaning.
I apologize if my posts upset anyone, I know these are rough times and maybe ranting and raving about how "everything fucking sucks!" Really isn't productive or meaningful. If I writd anything similar in the future I will mark it under a spoiler of some kind so it can be engaged with under informed consent of the viewer.
I know this is gonna sound shitty but I've been having anxiety attacks constantly the past 4 days or so because of information I have consumed that I do not feel comfortable sharing in this post as it would distract from my other points and necessitate a similar spoiler mark imo so I don't spread my panic like a contagion. I also gotta be fr: I feel like flying off the handle on social media is all I can do these days because the heat dome + Multiple Sclerosis = days where I can barely function.
I apologize for coming off as emotionally manipulative in that last paragraph, my situation just completely sucks... I can't pretend it doesn't. I tried to pretend I wasn't disabled almost my entire life and it absolutely did not fucking work so I gotta be honest about the circumstances I'm living in. I don't have a job, haven't been able to get one in years and I had to stop taking my ADHD meds because of the anxiety attacks and the heat both teaming up against my heart.
I'm fine with my posts getting deleted, I just feel a crushing defeat in being misunderstood...