Spíosra

Here I be! #Fursuit #Fursuiter

I'll be here at CCH at least until 21:00.

#EF30 #Eurofurence

Do you think I'll find someone one day?

I tried my best.

@Nightraccoon@yeen.social Haven't heard of any of those! I'll have to look them up!

I'm really trying my best.

Back home. Heh.

@jonny@neuromatch.social Have some noodles! All vegetarian, possibly vegan! This may not have been with rice noodles, but I've been using rice noodles lately and it's heckin' good!

@soatok@furry.engineer Literally only following for the puns, what do you mean. /s ... (Sarcasm, to be extra clear!)

Whenever I've tried to explain how I feel about things, it always basically comes around to how "oh, but you can do it with close friends!"

And like... were you even listening to me?

I really wanna be held and hug and stuff.

I don't know what to do.

I really thought I'd have found someone by now.

I really wanna find someone one day. I know I won't though.

@Nightraccoon@yeen.social Nice! Which games are you playing recently?

I really want someone to like, be with me and spend time with me and stuff.

You know I'm in a fucked up situation in life when the people I interact with the most are coworkers.

I'm so fucking lonely. Haha

@KorrFur@furs.social It's what I'm hoping for!

While in Gothenburg I was looking for a place to grab a coffee from. Came up to one place and noticed the AI-generated art posters they had of what I assume were supposed to be various fruit-flavored drinks(?).

Noped out of there, checked out another coffee shop across the way from them, and the other coffee shop (without the AI slop) was amazing.

I'm so tired of this.

Just need to remember that I don't matter. Then it'd all be in proper perspective. Won't take hurt away, but it might help make the moments less long.

Lonely.

Yeah, would definitely be doing stuff with a boyfriend tonight. With him on top of me.

It's like, actually not fair.

For those with partners and stuff, I would like to hear about how and how much you cuddle and stuff together.

I would love to hear stories and stuff!

Listening to knitting ASMR and just going to go to bed soon, I guess.

Boyfriend thoughts and stuff.

I'm never gonna make a New Year's wish again. It's too much hope poured into it.

I'll find someone one day, right?

Lonely.

I really don't think there's anyone for me.

Why can't I have someone too?

Feel a little bit dizzy.

I wish I could experience human connection and intimacy like all my peers and even those younger than me do.

But I don't matter.

I'm going to bed now. I have my heating pad on and the window open.

Goodnight.

What's everyone up to today?

Already made myself more lonely by looking at Barq and stuff.

Making myself feel bad again by doing the most productive thing available to me to try and find someone.

I'm scared to be alone.

Crying.

#EF30 #Eurofurence #Furry #Fursuit

I'm 100% jealous of all of you who have partners, if I'm completely honest.

I'm going to get up tomorrow; take the bus to the office; walk the same path I always do; utter the phrases* I always do; and at the end of the day just come home and listen to music or watch Twitch streams or something like I always do.

* "Do I have a boyfriend? No; do I want a boyfriend? Yes; will I find a boyfriend? No."

I really want a boyfriend.

I get like, facial ticks or something more and more as I've gotten older.

It feels more like, a string of frequently recurring moments of being overwhelmed. Because it happens mostly when loneliness and stuff is brought to the forefront or when I start thinking a lot about relationship stuff.

It goes hand-in-hand with the episodes of confusion and disorientation I notice I feel. Things which should take a few seconds end up taking a few minutes because I feel like I have to constantly ground and reground. Close my eyes; pull in; grasp myself; count to 10; count down from 10; repeat.