GrossyJpeg

But I'm having fun drawing again and just drawing for the sake of it instead of trying too hard to make stuff that's "good" or "worth showing off". I've been sitting down pretty much every day before I get any "real" work done and just... drawing. Whatever comes to mind. Having fun with the process. It's been kind of freeing, really.

@SpoopTheSpoopster I love the Green Elf Girl... 's panties. :klee_pray: Also I love her expression a lot, that's really cute.

When I started to take commissions like, what... over ten years ago now? Jesus... But, accepting money for art and then later opening up a Fanbox sort of amplified the pressure on me to ONLY make fully finished things (or at least refined/colored sketches) And it kind of just stifled my growth and creativity as an artist. Which does matter to me, a lot.

Though of course... I can't deny there's still the drive to make this more "viable" as a source of income. I still don't have any idea what I'm doing when it comes to that, which is why I've always operated on the idea that if I just make what I like, people will show up for that... eventually. But maybe I can find a sort of balance with that if I work on it more, I dunno.

Anyway, sorry for the rambling. All that to say I've just been doing some thinking at the start of this year and it's helped me get over the art block at the very least. So that's been nice.

But I realized I can't actually improve if I don't let myself make "bad" art. And I know "bad" is subjective, but the point is I've been letting my perfectionism and anxiety about what I'm putting out there effect my actual drawing process WAY too much. I wanna fix that, mostly for myself.